Whether it’s positive or negative, it doesn’t matter. What matters is that it’s peer pressure what makes us who we are in developing into a complete person or being. No human is excluded from this, even Superman and Spiderman are affected by it too or else they wouldn’t be hiding behind to mask and changed into being a superhero in a telephone booth or hanging around their web.
I am pressured too. By everyone around me. Yes, I don’t care but, specifically, I feel pressured when someone is better than me. I have a competitive complex. I don’t like it when I can’t do simple things. I feel pressured by my boyfriend since he knows how create things with designing software.
There are many other things that I feel pressure about but somehow, I could never bother shutting people’s mouth. I am never an angel nor am I ever a devil. Certainly, I know I am human. As far as I know and I am concern about, last time I checked, humans are vulnerable and they are definitely not God sent or else you’d be an angel with perfect white wings.
Either way, you’re a human and other humans judge another human, whether you’re a human with perfect white no-ill-intention heart or you were devil but reborn as a human, people can still talk about you the way they judge you. Even if you are truly a nice person, if I don’t like you because you’re nice, I can still label you as a bad person.
Ignorance is bliss. Truly. I am always ignorant when people talk about me because I talk about people too. Unsatisfactory is something normal when you’re a human. You’re always unsatisfied about something; yourself, your friend, your elder sister, your younger brother, your neighbour, your cat or fish, your best friend, your previous maid, the waitress that works at a cafe nearby your house, a damn retard stranger that has silky smooth hair or just about anyone on this corrupted earth.
I have been through this every time I’m in a community. I pretty sure almost everyone had too. If you haven’t, you just have to wait and it’ll come your way eventually. Don’t worry, it won’t kill you physically. It is true by right, you have to input yourself within the community, follow the community as it is but as I stand straight on my grey line, I find it tiresome to keep up with it. Why the hell should I follow you when I am not able to put on my black mask?
When I turned 16, I have decided I had enough of keeping up. I prefer being selfish and not let others become selfish. I’ll let others keep up with me. If you refuse, you’re fine to leave.
“If you can’t accept me at my worst, what makes you think you deserve my best?”
- Marilyn Monroe
